Internship ranting and some OOTDs

I'm falling way behind on this blog, but I really don't have time to update much as of recently. School takes all my time and pretty much kills any inspiration I might have had about blogging -_-

Anyhow in about 6 weeks I'm heading out for a 3 month long internship, I still don't know where I'm gonna end up though, I'm sure it will be interesting, and probably pretty horrible according to any person who have ever done an internship at a Japanese hotel. What I'm most worried about is that I'm gonna flip a table and loose my temper, because the way interns are treated in Japan would probably not be legal in Sweden... And since I'm white and a WOMAN (omygosh!) I've been told I'm gonna have an even tougher time. Well they've probably never run into a Swedish viking girl before. To be honest I'm not really sure if I have the right kind of personality for the hotel world (at least the Japanese one), I do NOT take lightly on rasism and sexism, and as harsh as it sounds I'd rather quit than having to bow my head while having to take crap like that.

To get myself out of some negative thinking I've been going through my beloved closet, realizing I have a lot of clothes, sadly pretty much every morning I stand infront of the darn closet thinking, "I have nothing to wear". I realized it was mostly because I have a hard time coming up with what would actually go nicely with what, seeing as my closet is always a mess no matter how hard I try to organize it... So I came up with the idea of making outfits and taking pictures! That way I can look at those pictures for inspo when I feel like I have nothing to wear.

Skirt CECIL McBEE,  T-shirt Hyphen world gallery

Shoes EGOIST

Shorts Forever 21

Hat Fig&Viper T-shirt Cecil McBEE Shorts H&M

Necklace EGOIST T-shirt Lip Service Pants OZOC

Sunglasses MA*RS

I'm gonna try and post some outfits every other second week or so, that way I might get some posting motivation back and I get to play around with my beloved clothes and accessories <3

And I can't believe I missed Coldplay when they for once came to Tokyo ;___; They played in a ridiculously small hall and the tickets went out through a lottery, luck was not on my side. Hoping they'll come back soon to play at a big arena, if it's at festival I'm gonna drag myself half over Japan if I have to!

Well I'm off to kick som kanji butt, take care ya all~

Language school, sayonara

So yesterday I finally graduated from my japanese language school after 2 years of studying. Can't believe it's been 2 years already! Especially the first year went really fast, probably because it was easy and a lot of fun, guess life in general was easier and more carefree that first year. Second year was tough, really tuff, but it had it's moments as well. I've met so many nice people along the way, some who are remaining in Japan and some who've gone back home. I think that has been the toughest thing about being an exchange student, you make really good friends, only to be separated shortly after. All in all I most certainly do not regret coming to Tokyo and spending these 2 years here.

Since it's 3 weeks left until the entrance ceremony of my college I'm taking the opportunity to spend 2 weeks in Sweden, visiting friends and just trying to relax as much as I can, charge my batteries so to say. I would've loved for my bf to come to Sweden with me, but as he's a typical japanese salary man taking some days of was of course impossible. Hopefully we can go somewhere together during golden week, once again it's not a whole week off, but at least we'll get 4 days in a row.

Also I've packed away my winter clothes as it seems the weather in Tokyo is now staying stable above +12C, nowadays it's usually around +15, lovely~

Right now I'm in the middle of packing for my trip to Sweden, seems it's gonna be cold so I guess I'll have to pack a mix of clothes. Also my roomy have gotten herself some company in the form of a cat (it used to live with her mom before) so if kitty is not too scared of me I'll have a little snuggle buddy^^ Starting to get a bit hyped up now!

Well I'll probably be writing again once I get back to Tokyo, bye for now~

A dolled up blog!

New design on the blog~ Yes, I finally managed to make it look more appealing, and no I have not made the design, I found the blog of a very talented person who used to make these, sadly she has quit now  http://itkupilli-cutencool.blogspot.jp

But anyhow, I've been thinking for a long time about what direction this blog should take. There's really not that much going on around me and several times I've been thinking if I should start write more about fashion and styling instead, kind of like an inspirational blog. And yes, I've decided to go with the latter. Of course I'll write about other stuff as well but I feel I need to have a theme for this blog if I'm gonna be motivated to write in it. I would like to be able to update it every one or two weeks, but we'll see.

Right now I'm sitting around waiting for an important letter to be delivered since I of course missed the delivery yesterday -__- I hate having to wait for these things since I can't go anywhere. But once I get that letter I can finally send in all papers to the technical college! Like, FINALLY, all this paperwork have been stressing me out so much, and I still can't relax since I don't know if I can get study support for this school, which means if I can't get that I won't have the proper aid to enter this school, and it's totally up to a special study council in my country to approve this school, scary…

Also I went to Sea Paradise in Hakkejima this past saturday, it was so much fun! I went there with my bf and a friend of ours so the company was great, it was the first time in at least 4 years that I rode a roller coaster, and it was the biggest one I had tried yet, think I felt like I was gonna die at least 3 times during that ride haha. I don't really like roller coasters so I don't know why I always end up riding them… Anyhow I'm gonna post pics later!

I don't know why against my better knowing I always end up buying this cheap crappy make up, just because it's CHEAP. So Last night I ordered this mascara from Rakuten, Lancome Doll Eyes.

I've heard good things about it so I hope I will like it! Also gonna get myself a new eye liner since my current one stays on for about 30min...

And yay finally the letter arrived ^___^ Time to get down to business with paper work!

Take care!

Autumn greetings

Yeah, autumn is finally coming, even though you couldn't have guessed unless it was for the leaves changing their color. Autumn in Tokyo is far cooler than summer, but that doesn't mean it gets cold like it does in Sweden, it's still at least 25 degrees most days, and humid...

So what have been going down since last time, well I guessed you could say a lot.
I moved from my beloved Ikebukuro to Kita-ayase, that pretty much is in the middle of nowhere, but the  apartment is great non the less, I could never afford a place like this in central Tokyo. Also things have finally cleared up for my bf so he will move in with me next week, can't wait, it's gonna be like living with your best friend! And yes I already know we're gonna fight over stuff like cleaning since I slightly believe in organized chaos and he is a complete neat freak lol. Luckily we have both pretty much accepted each others flaws by now.

I've also finished the intermediate level in my language school and will start the advanced level next week, both excited and a bit worried. But at least class MUST be more fun now than it has been the last 6 months, no more Minna no nihongo books. They were OK for beginners level and the start of intermediate but after that, NO.
And on the 25th we're gonna go to Hakone with school, really looking forward to it since it will be my first time going there!

Also I applied to a technical college today where I hope I'll be able to study high class hotel service. I'm faaar from sure I can get into that school, you need to pass an interview and a language test, but I would really regret it if I didn't at least try.

And soon it's my birthday, so I'm gonna throw a home party for once. I will also be joined by 3 of my best friends from Sweden who're coming to visit me for 2 weeks, so excited! We're gonna have so much fun, izakaya, karaoke, random craziness in Tokyo to put it simple.

I don't know why but lately I've felt more culture clashes between Sweden and Japan than normally, maybe a sign that I'm being dragged into japanese society on a deeper level than what I've experienced so far, it's a BIG difference just living here having fun and REALLY living here, hard to explain but I guess it's just about getting deeper into society.

Well this turned out to be far longer than I had intended, but here take some pics from my camping in the mountains last month, over and out~

Dying the sweet Tokyo summer death

I'm always late on making updates, sorry...

It's almost a month since the breast exam and as i hoped there was nothing wrong. The doctor just told me I could feel this way because I'm going trough a lot of stress in my daily life and that effects my hormones that in turn goes kind of crazy and stops to cooperate with the rest of the body. Having been told that I guess I should stress less in the future, but living in this country makes it kind of impossible to not stress over a handful of things -__-;

Also finished the final exams for intermediate level 2 without any problems, but now I'm kind of fearing level 3... But the next semester will just go on for one month before it's time for 2 weeks summer vacation! I have no made up plans as of yet but I'm gonna go to the beach for sure!

Right now I'm just dying the heat death and seeing it's gonna lean towards 33C at the end of the week I just want to hide indoors and not go outside until autumn. But since school starts tomorrow I don't have a choice. A lot of people left school after last semester so this time schools gonna feel a bit empty for sure. But I hope to met a lot of new people!

And during last week, since i had a week off from school, me and one of my best friends from Sweden took a trip to Jeju island, it was a really nice vacation and it felt great to get away from busy Tokyo for a while. Here's some pictures from the trip;

If I ever have the chance I'd love to come back to Jeju with my boyfriend, it could be a really romantic vacation^^

Without going into details, I'm still living in my own apartment, the moving in together thing got postponed into the future. Outer factors will always be a pain in the butt I guess, but those are just the things you can't do anything about.

But my biggest problem right now is probably the whole practical college/university thing. It's about getting time to choose now and I have no idea what to do since I will probably not be granted study loans for that. I'm so stressed I just want to punch a hole in the wall. I can't imagine leaving my bf and going back to Sweden without him next year, it's just, no. But I don't really now what to do right now, argh.

Well all I can do right now is just hoping things turns out for the better for my bf, that the heat doesn't kill me and that I'll get through this semester as well.

Over and out.